Disruption or regulation?

Recently, an EF-2 tornado came through my area.

Power was out. My normal environment was disrupted. I found myself at my shop, in the dark, trying to navigate life, motherhood, business and everything else while still attempting to function normally.

But I wasn't grounded…

I was dysregulated.

Emotionally, I became more reactive. Things that I may have been able to process differently when grounded suddenly felt bigger. I reached for reassurance. started chasing, when i know I’m meant to attract… I responded from emotion instead of stillness.

And in the middle of all of that, I lost a friendship... a connection that mattered deeply to me.

At first, I focused on the loss.

I replayed conversations.

I thought about what I could have said differently.

I thought about what I could have done differently.

But eventually I had to look beyond the connection and look at me.

My nervous system had been through something too.

The storm outside had passed, but internally, I was still responding like I was standing in it…. READ MORE…